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Remember...

Remember the time long ago When you sat on my lap at lunch Nothing was awkward between us And you claimed to be straight But that all changed, remember...
Remember when everything changed I told you my secret You took some time to think things through You made your choice And our first kiss, remember...
Remember our first kiss the school bathroom So romantic I couldn't stop smiling Till it ended, remember...
Remember when it ended The three times you ended it It was only allowed to be two But I'm to stupid To

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The Scars On My WristThe Scars On My Wrist [Remind Me I Do Exist]
These scars on my wrist, Remind me that I do exist. They remind me of all the pain I feel, Of all the times I just couldn't deal. They show my story, just look in the fine print, I can remember how that red blood would glint. The memories can not fade, My wrist can not forget the kiss of the blade. Sometimes it tells me to do it again, When I say later it wonders, When? Little does my wrist know that later means forever, The blade will get no closer. The scars remind me that I do exist, But now-a-days, I can The Scars On My Wrist
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Mirror, MirrorMirror, mirror on the wall Tell me what you see When I stand in front of you Can you see the things I hide? Do you know the secrets I keep inside?
Tell me mirror on the wall Can you see my inner demons? The demons that I lock inside Cages as large as my mind The demons who thrash about Begging to be freed
Mirror on the wall Can you see inside my heart? The person I wish to hold Dear and close to my heart Do you see her face? Do you know her name?
Mirror, mirror on the wall Tell me what you see When I sta Mirror, Mirror
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WordsThe words I write... On this lined paper... Mean nothing to you... I could write... A million pages... With a million words on each page... The words... Would express my love... For everything about you... The words... Words
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Secretly Fall ApartShe awakens with pain in her body and mind from the dreams that once brought a smile to her lips. She dresses for school, and doesn't bother with breakfast. She stands at the bust stop, trying to drown out the world with her i-pod. She has is blaring songs about sons hating their fathers, people dying, or losing their lovers. She gets on the bus, ignores everyone's stares. She enters the school and puts on a fake smile. She pretends she's fine and won't allow anyone to see her cry. She sees her heart's keeper with another. She smiles to her ex-lover, to co Secretly Fall Apart
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Happiness

Tue Dec 22, 2009, 6:55 PM

Mood: Depressed
Listening to: the pieces of my heart fix themselves

She asked me if I was happy today. I asked her honestly? And she said yes honestly.

Happy? Am I happy? Am I truly happy?

I told her "Honestly its been so long since I've been truly happy. I've forgotten what the fruits of happiness taste like. I believe what I feel now is contentment. Not true happiness. But I do think I am close to tasting the sweet nector of true honest happiness...at least I pray I am close..."

And I do believe I am close to being happy without her, without the Angel from my Nightmare. I can smile without forcing it. I can laugh without faking it. And I think I can love another without feeling so hurt. I think I can move on. I think I can actually be happy. I think I can feel the happiness I've longed to feel for so long...

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I'm Maddie. I'm 15. And I'm in love with a girl who doesn't love me anymore. Every time I talk to her, I am reminded of pain. And sometimes I really just want to take a bullet into my heart to stop the pain. But I can't do that so I go on pretending it doesn't hurt but it does...

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Current Residence: South Carolina
Interests: Guitar, girls, music, yuri, yoai, writing, reading, poetry, and girls!
Favourite movie: Grease, Saw 5, Harry Potter
Favourite band or musician: P!nk, Beastie Boys, Slipknot, The Ramones, Twisted Sister, Papa Roach, and a shit load of others!
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Punk, Metal
Favourite artist: my Biology teacher
Favourite poet or writer: Stephen King, Robert Frost, Emily Dickinson
Favourite style of art: realistic cartoon
MP3 player of choice: I-pod
Shell of choice: Taco Shell
Wallpaper of choice: kind that smells and tastes like tacos =D
Skin of choice: umm......mine?
Favourite game: Guitar Hero
Favourite gaming platform: Wii
Favourite cartoon character: Gir from Invader Zim
Personal Quote: Love is for fools, losers, and dreamers.

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~mordoc7 Dec 4, 2009, 6:28:41 PM

thanks for the fav

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Life is to short to waste on stupid people eat a cupcake and shut up!

~zanessa4ever Nov 11, 2009, 11:34:23 AM

Thank you for the fave.

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They said all teenagers scare the living shit out of me
They could care less as long as someone'll bleed
So darken your clothes or strike a violent pose
Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

~zanessa4ever Sep 20, 2009, 8:12:44 AM

Thanks for the watch... Saw your ID... Guess we're floating in the same boat, huh?

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~DontAskMeHow2Love Sep 20, 2009, 8:18:28 AM

Floating in the same boat?

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(Bi)

I'm not supposed to love you.
I'm not supposed to care.
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there.
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are, or what you do.
I'm sorry I can't help myself
'cause I'm in love with you.

~zanessa4ever Sep 20, 2009, 8:23:34 AM

I'm in love with a friend of mine as well... Well, she was my friend. She won't even acknowledge me now...

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~DontAskMeHow2Love Sep 20, 2009, 8:33:42 AM

Oh. Sucks doesn't it. My friend was once my girlfriend. I should have just stayed friends with her...

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(Bi)

~zanessa4ever Sep 20, 2009, 8:48:25 AM

*sigh* Well, you're lucky, I'm like, a last resort for her... I'd only be used for comfort.

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Proud member of:
GSA
ACTS retreats
OLMC Catholic Church

Loves her kitty

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